Just Like Love

I was standing in the shower, asking God, yet again, to forgive me for letting myself make other things in my life more important than Him. Of all of the prayers I pray, it seems that this one particularly has a permanent spot in the top ten. Okay, top three.

Ever been there?

It’s been the never-ending cycle of my life. To find things that are important to me and cling to them. Not really walking away from my relationship with God, but just not giving it the attention it deserves either. And so I find myself in the shower or in the bed or in the car or at the kitchen sink, asking forgiveness. AGAIN.

My friend, Eliza, always told me that when I’m ready for the answer, that I’ll ask the right questions. And so I asked:

How do I love God more, so that I won’t constantly chose things over Him?

The answer was immediate and clear: Intentionality.

We’ve all seen or experienced relationships that although they start as fireworks, they fizzle. They become a habit or an obligation or a drudgery instead of the joy and privilege and adventure they were in the beginning. Suddenly, you find him choosing to go out with the guys instead of spending the evening with his beloved. And you find her busying herself with the garden club, the PTA, and the Sunday School class she teaches.

It’s not that there’s anything wrong with basketball with the boys or leading the ladies’ sewing circle. It’s that those activities become a substitute and a distraction from the real thing. From this love and this relationship.

I’ve done this with God. Repeatedly. I’ve chosen good things, but not always God. I have not always been intentional in my relationship with Him. He should be the first voice I seek to hear in the morning and the last thing I seek to hear at night. He should be the first one I run to when everything goes wrong and the one I run to when something goes right. I must choose to love Him first and most, every day.

It’s a choice. It’s intentional.

Just like love.

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Comments

  1. Thanks, Sarah! I know just what you mean. I am SOOOOO guilty of doing the same thing. But isn’t it great that He is always there, waiting for us to come back to our senses and back to Him? Great post, as usual!

  2. Sarah Salter says:

    Jeff, it’s so good to hear from you & see you around here again! And yes, I totally love God’s faithfulness. It makes me think of the line from the Jeremy Camp song: “I’ll take you back–always!” :)

  3. Sarah, sweet Sarah, He is delighted with your choice to follow hard after Him†

    Sometimes I think He uses our times of drifting away to create a deeper hunger, allowing us to find out just how much we truly want and need Him. He feeds on our desire.

  4. This post reminded me of the Tommy Nelson series on Song of Solomon…

    http://www.songofsolomon.com/

    In one of the video’s he talks about pursuing God intentionally above all else. As you are running towards God glance around and see who is running alongside…you might just find a mate there.

  5. Sarah Salter says:

    Karin, I couldn’t agree with you more!

  6. Sarah Salter says:

    Dusty, interesting that you pointed this out. Our small group did a study a couple of years ago on Song of Solomon, though I can’t recall if it was this particular one. And that’s an interesting thought.

  7. I made a commitment with my accountability network to open each day with at least 15 minutes on my knees JUST LISTENING to God in prayer. Then I read a Psalm. I do this before I do anything else. I’ve done it for several weeks now. I haven’t had any AHA! moments during these times. But I’ve noticed a couple things:

    – I am more at peace when facing stressful situations
    – I love my wife more
    – I am more conscious of my dialog with God all through the day
    – I am noticing the simple miracles around me

    So I’m being intentional, yes, about the morning routine. But once I’m on my face before God, I stop pushing. I don’t intercede. I don’t petition. I just listen. Listen hard after His voice.

  8. Sarah Salter says:

    That’s exactly it, Scott. Exactly it. Thank you!

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