My roommate has a sweet little dog named Bogey. She’s a Pomeranian-Papillon mix – thirteen pounds of fuzzy, furry, cuteness. Bogey and I have become good friends and she often curls up against my right hip as I edit. Or, she’ll throw herself across my lap and shove my laptop out of the way, then wiggle over onto her back to get her belly rubbed. And on nights that my roomie is out of town, Bogey curls herself up on top of my down comforter, in the small of my back, and quietly snores beside me through the night. But as much as she loves me, she loves her Mama – my roomie – much more. She’s her Mama’s shadow.
On a recent evening, my roommate had some company over. It was a little chilly out, so they turned on the lights on the back patio, lit the fire-pit, brewed a pot of coffee, and headed out back to visit. Bogey, always her Mama’s shadow, went out with them, but as dogs are prone to do, she kept barking at ambient noises (which doesn’t make the neighbors very happy), and she kept wandering off (which isn’t very safe when we are aware that there’s been a coyote sighted in the neighborhood). And so, my roomie brought Bogey inside to hang out with me.
Bogey did not like that at all. She wanted to be near her Mama. She knew her Mama was on the other side of the door. And for the entire time her Mama was outside, she sat inside, whining and whimpering at the door. She refused treats. She refused all of her favorite toys. Even when I picked her up to hold her in my lap, she sat rigid, trembling and whining and refusing to be consoled.
And in that little dog, I saw myself.
Bogey was upset because she was away from the one who makes her feel secure. And even when she stood at the glass door and looked out, she couldn’t see her Mama clearly, because it was dark out.
1 Corinthians 13:12 says, “Now we see through a glass, darkly…” Or in the Message, it says, “We don’t yet see things clearly. We’re squinting in a fog, peering through a mist.”
Who among us doesn’t know how that feels? Remember that saying that there’s no sure things but death and taxes? Who of us knows for sure what’s going to happen today or tomorrow? Who of us has a guarantee that we will be healthy forever, and that our finances are secure and unlimited? That our children will be safe and that our loved ones will have easy, happy, healthy lives? None of us has those guarantees. And so often I sit, like Bogey, shaking and inconsolable, staring out at the dark and whimpering.
As I sit, watching Bogey, I know that everything is going to be okay. I’m here with her. And her Mama will come in after a bit, and Bogey will feel secure and happy again. But Bogey, sitting there waiting, doesn’t know that.
In my own life, if I have faith, I can know that everything in my life is going to be okay. I am not alone in my wait either. And my wait won’t last forever.
Bob Sorge tells us that God says, “When I heal and restore you, you will understand so much more about me. Your understanding of my heart will be seven times greater than what it was before. You will truly know me.”
I don’t know about you, but that’s what I want more than anything. I want to understand. I want to understand myself and the world around me. I want to understand the way things are and why. But most of all, I want to know and understand the one who made it all – who made me and who loves me.
That’s not just what I want. That’s what I need. And I need to have faith that that day is coming, as I sit, looking through dark glass.
1 Corinthians 13:12 finishes out by saying, “Then we shall see face to face. What I know in part, I will know fully. Even as I am fully known.”
But I also like the way The Message paraphrases it: “It won’t be long before the weather clears and the sun shines bright! We’ll see it all then, see it all as clearly as God sees us, knowing him directly just as he knows us!”
That’s a promise I need today.
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