Recently, I’ve had a number of people asking me if I’m still blogging. For the first year I blogged, I usually blogged 3-5 times a week and so now that I’ve dropped back to 1-2 times a week, I think it is a valid question and so I thought I’d address it here.
You may remember that I didn’t start blogging because I wanted to be a blogger. I started blogging because I was writing for an online magazine whose editor told me I needed to start a blog. It was “highly recommended” so that I could “be accessible to my readers.” From the beginning I struggled with what I would say. Why would anybody listen to what I had to say? What right did I have to speak into people’s lives? And so I took the small handful of answers I had and began sharing them.
Not-so-recently, I became aware that I’m at a different place in my life now. I’m at a place where I have far more questions than answers. Not only is that a scary place to be, but it’s a scary place to let others see me. Most days, it’s easier to struggle alone with my questions than to open the blinds and show the world how weak I actually am.
Today, I’m opening a crack in the blinds to let you see where I am.
Today’s scary question: What do you do when you realize that you don’t know where you belong?
I know a hundred pat answers to this question, but today, those pat answers don’t mean anything to me.
To return to the original question about whether or not I’m still blogging, the answer is yes. But I think I need to explain that for a while, at least, I’m going to have more questions than answers in my blogs. And if you’re okay with that, I welcome you to stick around and see where we end up.